bad day

mav banged ia buat kamu, suda banyak merepotkaaan..suda banyak bikin susaah..susah diatur,susah dibilangiiin.. mav banged .. makasi juga masi mau temenan sama aku. makasi buat selama ini, ngga bosen bosennya kenal aku. makasi juga atas perhatianmu selama ini, makasiiii banged. aku sadar banged kalo aku ngga bisa lakuin apa apa buat kamu,aku bisanya bikin susah aja sama kamu..ngga heran juga ssi kalo kamu sebel sama aku. aku orangnya kayak gini seh, cobak bisa diatur mungkin ngga seberapa sebel kamu sama aku..yah, apalagi kemaren malem..mungkin itu puncaknya kamu gedek sama aku..jujur, aku takut kamu marah semarah-marahnya kayak kemaren..soalnya aku ngga pernah liat kamu kayak gitu..aku ngerti tujuanmu itu juga buat kebaikanku..tapi apa yg tak lakuin?aku malah ngelakuin hal yang km larang..maav banged.. mungkin iya, karna kejadian kemaren,rasa kepercayaanmu ke aku pudar..aku bisa nerima kok..semua itu konsekuensinya perbuatanku..kamu masi mau mavin aku aja udah bersyukur banged..termasuk sabar kamu ngadepin aku. tapi, aku tau sabar itu ada batasnya..ngga bisa juga terus-terusan kamu ngadepin aku yg kayak ginii.. seharusnya aku tuh sadar aku ngga bole trus2an ngerepotin kamu.. gini nni ak ngrasa ngga enaaak bgd wes sma km . mgkane kmren ak diem aj. soale uda gatau mesti ngmong aplagii. ak wes malu sama diriku dewe,yg slalu aj bkin km susah.. ditambah tadi, aku ngga dteng ke acara itu..pdhal aku uda blang tak ushain.. tapi ternyata apa? ngga dateng kaan.. okelah, bisa2 benci kali ia km sma aku..kok ia sukaknyaa kayak gini.. dengan km ngga bles cmsku aj lo, ak uda bisa tau klo km mrah sama ak . aku mnta mav iaa.. maav banged :)

PS : honestly, I do not want to lose you

its bitter sweet sour when you recognize

when I was just a little girl

I'm sure one day I will become an adult woman

with all the problems that always attacked me

and rules that get me into a good little girl

However, when I had started to grow into a teenager

all seemed to complicated problems and meet my brain.

I felt the problem was never any way out

was it because he?

if only because a boys who had never clear his presence.

or indeed my own who complicate the problem

This all is possible.

it was not possible.

we grew up together that long

I know you, although you never know, if I always lurk your

even though never met.

I just feel disappointed, after I know that you pay more attention to him.

indeed probably all my fault.

but I do so because I am waiting for you.

I do not want to be told of thieves.

indeed for the sake of self-esteem, I sacrificed my feelings.

Is this the end of my story?

hopefully not.

I just want you to take your time to me even if only slightly.

like when you were close friends with me.

when you still need me.

when you still trust me as a friend.

However, what if indeed he

This end of the story of my sweet,

hopefully I will pray for you can be happy with him

I could be happy if you happy although not with me

though, the hardest part is when you love,

when you love someone else in front of me